School is starting back up in a week. I won't be attending college for the spring semester. Part of me is sad, part of me is relieved. Although I whined and complained about all the work, it really wasn't that bad, school wise, just very time consuming. I got A's in 3 of my 4 classes, and got a B+ in the last one, I was actually only 1 point away from having 4 A's! I realized that this is Evan's last year home with me (tears filling my eyes!) and I want to enjoy what little time we have left together. He starts K this fall and I don't want the next few months spent with him playing around and me doing homework on the computer. There's plenty of time for me to finish my degree, but I will never get this time back with him!
My kids are growing up on me too quickly! I don't want to look back in 10 years and say I wish I did this differently when I know I should be doing it differently now!
I never heard anybody say on their death bed that they wish they spent more time at work or in school, instead you always here about people saying I wish I spent more time with my family.
Some part of me wishes we would go back to the 50's mindset where when you had kids you were expected to stay at home with them and just raise them, not like nowadays where you're expected to do everything else under the sun but stay home with your kids. Society puts a lot of unnecessary pressure on stay at home Mom's. We're made to feel guilty if we stay at home, like we're just lazy or we're wasting all of our time and talents. Just think of all this stuff you could have if only you worked too, a big house, fancy cars, 1st class vacations, ____________________ you fill in the blank. But I ask you, at what cost?
I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm not Super Woman, I can't do it all! Raising kids is a FULL time job and no I can't have my cake and eat it too! MMM, did somebody mention cake? LOL!
So I guess I will be a drop out in the eyes of society for not finishing my degree right now, but it's not the eyes of society that looks at me with the utmost love every day and the little arms that wrap around me and I hear I love you Mommy! Now that's what counts as being successful to me! My 4 little people God blessed me with, that's what I want to invest my time and energy into!
I guess I went a wee bit off the title post about school, LOL!